She Speaks...

Today, after much deliberation, delaying and unfortunately to some extent doubting God and His plan for me, I registered for the Proverbs 31 Ministries She Speaks Conference. It is a conference that God has been preparing me for and I have delayed registering because of the cost. We have kids/youth camps coming up and this falls right into the middle of those. How could I possibly do all of it? Through one of the few real steps of faith I've made in my Christian life, I stepped out in faith in God and His desires for me and registered. The total cost will be about $1,500. Another huge step of faith, all coming in the same day, was to ask for help. Anybody who knows me or has known me in the past or will know me in the future knows that for me to ask for help would be nothing other than an act of God in itself. I know the only way I'll be able to go is with help. With people around me and the faithfulness of God, I know that this trip will happen because I know without a doubt this is the direction God wants me to go. I am so completely excited and yet scared at the same time. What I am not is hesitant nor unfaithful. I love God so much and find myself loving Him more every day like a spouse, parent and child all in one. As each day goes on, I find myself looking forward to what the next day brings (even though I'm not always excited with it after it gets here! ha!) but mainly what God will bring. Also, I'm finding it weird where I'm finding inspriration from :)