(cont.) She Speaks...

Almost forgot...very briefly after completing my registration and after sending out emails and a note on facebook asking for support, God gave me some affirmation. This came through Proverbs 31 Ministries on Facebook and was exactly what I needed to hear when I needed to hear it. All because God is just great like that! Their posting said:

"Today you'll be tempted to back off a little from a big goal God has put in your heart. Don't you dare. ~Steven Furtick"

I think this might just be my "motto" for the time being. Set a reminder to not give up on anything my heart desires. A reminder to not give up on God and to continue to listen to Him no matter what road blocks pop up and try to detour you whether that is kids, finances, general life or just plain old doubting yourself when God trusts in you. God is awesome and He never fails. When we step out in faith in Him, He will show up and provide! Let me see how much I can let myself trust and trust in God and His plan!

She Speaks...

Today, after much deliberation, delaying and unfortunately to some extent doubting God and His plan for me, I registered for the Proverbs 31 Ministries She Speaks Conference. It is a conference that God has been preparing me for and I have delayed registering because of the cost. We have kids/youth camps coming up and this falls right into the middle of those. How could I possibly do all of it? Through one of the few real steps of faith I've made in my Christian life, I stepped out in faith in God and His desires for me and registered. The total cost will be about $1,500. Another huge step of faith, all coming in the same day, was to ask for help. Anybody who knows me or has known me in the past or will know me in the future knows that for me to ask for help would be nothing other than an act of God in itself. I know the only way I'll be able to go is with help. With people around me and the faithfulness of God, I know that this trip will happen because I know without a doubt this is the direction God wants me to go. I am so completely excited and yet scared at the same time. What I am not is hesitant nor unfaithful. I love God so much and find myself loving Him more every day like a spouse, parent and child all in one. As each day goes on, I find myself looking forward to what the next day brings (even though I'm not always excited with it after it gets here! ha!) but mainly what God will bring. Also, I'm finding it weird where I'm finding inspriration from :)

First Day

I have decided to start blogging in order to make my writing and speaking become gradually better. Most of it will probably be random thoughts but hopefully will turn into something more :)